December 23rd, 2005
Robin Buss with her sister at
B&M's 25th anniversary party
Apparently "it's the most wonderful time of the year." But with the nasty weather, packed malls and no work (not for models, anyway), I really start to wonder.
Some of you may already know that I have recently come back from the far off world of Hong Kong. Three months of modelling there really changed my life. I grew a lot as a model, and feel like a much stronger, more capable human being. I loved it! The mountain/metropolitan landscape, the colourful people, the warm weather! Which brings me to my next point: why is Toronto so cold? You would think that after 10 years of living just north of Toronto, that I would be used to "a high of -4," but honestly, every year, once the cold sets in, I can't help but start to complain. Just a little.
And now its raining! Blech! Perhaps this nasty weather is a reminder for us to slow down. We should work less, relax with family more, eat slowly instead of rushing through a meal... stay warm instead of fighting the wind to get to the next department store. Nature is telling us to slow down.
And yet look at me, I'm restless! Its been over three weeks since I've been back, and I am getting antsy! I want to work! Right now, Toronto is a slow market. Summer seems to be prime time, where as this time of year is, well, hit or miss. Somewhere in my head I was hoping to jump off the plane in Toronto and head right into a job. Instead, I headed into my family's arms. Not so bad.
But I really wanted to do some more work here before Christmas... Instead I had two weeks to myself. I read, I watched TV, I talked to my mom, I saw my boyfriend. I re-oriented myself with the city of Toronto. One party. Two castings. It has been slow. I have had so much time on my hands. But having some much needed time to myself after the whirlwind adventure overseas... not so bad either.
And of course there is Christmas. I don't know about you, but there are very few Holiday songs I actually like. Especially the dance remixes of Christmas tunes - they really get under my skin! All the malls are full of last minute shoppers frantically trying to get that one really cool gift that they should have gotten for their mom ages ago... people scrambling from store to store... people wandering the mall for ideas. All set to a sped up, funked up "jingle bells." Its enough to drive a person crazy!
This is a tough time of year. There are so many extremes, and so many expectations. Everyone is so busy... and its so cold! And those of us celebrating expect Christmas to be this wonderful collaboration of family love, expressed through material goods. Is it ever enough?
Maybe we should listen to the sleeting rain, and instead of cursing it (my current favourite past-time), we should follow its suggestion. It is time to slow down. Even though I have this feeling that I need to be out there in action, working, or organizing something, or making sure everything is in order... I just need to realize that what I have, right now, is really what I need. And that is enough.
Robin Buss (B&M Models) is a 19-year-old who recently travelled to Hong Kong to start her international career. The 176 cm (5'9") model was in Asia for the first time in her life and shared her experience with modelresource readers. Those stories can be found here.